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Just know that you’re responsible. That’s it.
Dear Baby,
I know you are having an extremely hard time with work now. And certain people are not being helpful, keep your calm and finish up whatever that was given to you. It is no longer about them anymore. But you, selfish as it is but you have done your part of work. Have been having crashed moods because of this, using more vulgarities lately. Forgiven. But yea, I want you to remember that above all this crap you’re getting from your friends, what matters most is you do not forget who you are and what you need. I believe you need to hop to bed by 2am. Max. I don’t want you to be waiting up on your friends, while most of them are taking no responsibilities for their work, and end up looking pretty/handsome without getting any work done. I know how you feel, cause I would be the same if I had mates like your’s, irresponsible nuts. Be kind, but straight.
I hope you’re looking forward to picnic next sunday. Cause I am! I’ve decided we’re gonna try to make poached eggs/ eggs benedict’s cause I miss the norwegian salmon from rider’s cafe!! SO BAD. If not we’ll have egg mayo sandwich wholemeal style. (: and sparkling juice! I hope that will help you to relax in every all way round. I love you! I’m glad you’re being responsible this time around, even though i know it’s really tough to deal with kids! But it’s good training isn’t it? (: Oh wells! I just have to say, I cannot stand bimbotic/himbotic people who behaves like 12. Whatever happens at the end, you got a part of your work done. Instead of spending time outside, you had to stay home and do work. That’s the true fact. I love you!!!
Adora
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What’s your believe in life?
Giving.
I believe in giving before receiving, and even if I don’t receive when I give it makes me happy. To me there are many ways we can give, such as materials, love, money, advice, hugs, listening ear etc. I do believe in karma too though, like when you give genuinely from your heart you will receive a certain sort of good feeling just by giving and knowing you’ve made a change and given hope to someone else. Many a times I hear stories from loads of people about their believes and all that, I have been swayed a couple of times but religion has brought me back to reality and I’m glad it has. Thinking back, those ‘friends’ I’ve made never lasted long. I don’t have many good ones, cause I’ve always believe in seeking a friend in one’s family. I’m glad I’ve got good support. Although at times we do step one another’s tail, but it is honestly easier to patch that wound as compared to a wound made within friends. I may be wrong, but I am sure I am right when I say I family offers you better advice as they let you hear things you don’t wish to listen and though they may be bias at times they know more than we do and we take life as a learning journey together.
Right now, I believe in progress and to me I think Singapore is not a place for me to succeed any longer. The only regret I made was to sign that bond. Now for 3 years I am stuck, but I think it’s a good environment for me to grow and learn. I am dying to leave and start a brand new chapter with my partner. Just us, for a good change.
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Tim: why does she love me?
Why does she love me?
I am not as funny as
Ashton Kutcher.
I am not as cute as
Robert Pattinson.
I am not as hot as
Taylor Launter.
Neither am i rich like
Donald Trump.
Neither am i as sweet as
uh. any perfect guy in dramas/movies.
Yes. Anyway, i ask myself this question many many times.
And i believe she have asked herself too. AHAHAHAHAH.
but yes. I have figured it out. The answer is:
She loves me because,
i am me.
Simple. (:
She loves me for my flaws (doesn’t mean i don’t need to work on them).
She loves me for my attributes.
She loves me so much, everything about me don’t matter.
She loves just me. (:
I think that’s the answer.
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What irritates me/ have been irritating me.
I am a very straightforward person, to people I am close with. I do not like to beat around the bush, I like to get things done as and when I have it on hand. I do not appreciate unnecessary comments about my bf’s weight or mine, and worst of all. I’d appreciate a open conversation about things to be discussed with the family or friends or work. I do not believe in one-sided opinion, cause one is never right or is never wrong. I can tolerate, in fact I think I can tolerate nonsense very well. I will not speak of any words, but I guess my face will show you when to stop comments that is getting on my nerves, in other words insensitive comments. I believe that parents/ adults/ teens/ EVERYONE, have their own opinions and thoughts, they may be right or wrong I do not know. But as long as you have an opinion it is good, I like people with opinions cause it only shows they are thinking and they have a say for themselves. I can’t imagine anyone without opinion, and just blindly get said for about something. That really isn’t cool. What you see of me is what you’ll get. If you do not like it, then I really have nothing to say. I will just take you as any other passer-by. Simple as that. I have cultivated a character of my own, where I feel has caused some to like me and some who will take some time to know the kind of person I am. Whatever it is, all I have done or said, is to give a certain person some justice cause I don’t think it is right to talk bad about someone behind his/her back. No offence to any particular one, but it just infuriates me knowing that at this century, adults still think that everything they say is RIGHT. And we have to just keep our darn ass mouth shut like crap. And I am not a person who will just nod and say yes yes yes to everything claimed right, cause that’s just not me. Oh wells! I guess at this point of time, I’d really want to leave for perth asap. Being in Singapore, does not make me feel happy anymore.
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TEEHEE (:
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Taking a break.
Dear Teck Sheng,
I am calling you by name, cause I don’t feel comfortable calling you B right now. I am taking a week off from you because I feel there’s a need for you and I to think about us. YOU and I. Not only me who needs the thinking, cause you probably think it’s only me who needs to think, but I hope you do too. About your character, your attitude and everything else. I hope you understand that I am your girlfriend, I can’t be your friends cause we literally live together like almost every other day. They are good and nice to you, sometimes not too good, but I have to face all the crap you throw to me. And at times I don’t even say a shit. So I hope you don’t compare me with them. Cause if you want to, get them to live with you. I just want you to know also, that I am extremely particular, particular about communication with eye contact. Seems like after 2 years you still don’t get it. That I need you to talk and tell me what’s going on with you, and it’s not only about me. Think about it. You’ve always been the one listening, cause I’m always sharing with you about the people and happenings at work. I don’t mind hearing from you, even if you do tell me things I do not wish to hear. But then again, it’s all about learning. I believe I have been superbly tolerant with how you have treated me from the beginning, until the last year. And again this year. For having to break my trust over and over again, I don’t know how I manage to. But you got to thank your luck for the gods above. Without them giving me support, we’re long gone. You and I have to work on our communication. And YOU, have to quit bumming around. I am not shitting you, if you’re complaining about school work now, I can’t imagine Uni life for you. What’s a lot worst, it is going to science course. Your mum has been talking to me about you going into science course in Perth. You got to learn, and priorities. AND STOP KEEPING THINGS TO YOURSELF. I am not just a girl for you to hold hands and kiss with, I am your mate. Your bestfriend. I am taking you as a bestfriend now. But I hope to see more from you. Treating me like a bestfriend. I can’t imagine myself living with you at the moment, I could before. But now after all the tragic years, you got me thinking. I had resist all temptations, what kind of temptations, you should know better enough. I am not comparing you with them, cause I know it’s unfair. But what the heck. I just hope this week is good for us to think, YOU AND I. As I said, not just me. So be kind to me and yourself, and think. Cause I had enough, of trashy months like this, and I totally do not want another from you or me. Thank you.
Adora.
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Sunday Blues.
Things I’ve done ever since I woke up:
- Bak kut teh with Tim’s family for Breakkie.
- Taught Jasper for a bit, till he got really restless
- Chat with Joe and Bekka (: Finally spoke to Bekka! She’s so amazing!
- Right now. Nothing, and I am so bored!
Talking to Joe about planning his holiday, just makes me feel like planning one for myself. It’s soooo annoying that feeling. Cause I won’t be able to get my annual leave until next year I think. Which means no travelling till then! How sad right? I know. I mean, Teck Sheng(tim) and I would love to travel to far far away, like where Joe Bekka are now. But bummer. It’s so costly! Oh wells! We just gotta cross our fingers and wait. It’s so tiring. I don’t have much to do right now, cause tim’s busy with his test tmr. Hmmm, I like our new found friend from Facebook. Probably the only one we got to know more. Awesome. (: I feel like baking today! Like Red Velvet cake or something. ): I should really get a new oven. Hmmm. I’ll think about it. I feel like going on a holiday to Brisbane. ): Or maybe, just a holiday to somewhere near. Like Redang perhaps? I want to revisit Redang all over again. Maybe I should persuade Joe Bekka to join us! Hmmm… I’ll see what they say. Tsk tsk. Okay, I think I am going to catch some rest. Sleep tight world.
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Tim:
Well, things have been extremely tiring these days. At least for my dear Adora.
To wake up early in the morning just to get to work.
To work in the sweltering heat of a non-air conditioned ward.I just want to dedicate this song i heard on Gold 90.5FM (my new favourite radio station, the rest are just too noisy.), Two Steps Behind by Def Leppard. Actually, just the chorus. But the whole song is nice anyway. (:
To my Adora:
Nobody can ever doubt your capability as an awesome nurse and leader at that. I always keep in mind that your job is never easy so i don’t give you a tough time at home. At least i try not to. :D Whatever you are going to do in the future, to be a Doctor, Nurse, Veterinarian, Vet. Technician, whatever it is, it doesn’t matter, because I will always be two steps behind. (:
Here’s the lyrics just in case you can’t load the video.
Def Leppard’s Two Steps Behind (Chorus)
Whatever you do - I’ll be two steps behind you.
Wherever you go - and I’ll be there to remind you.
That it only takes a minute of your precious time,
To turn around, I’ll two steps behind.I love you.
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As we end this chapter together, I’ll say a penny worth’s of speech.
Amy Ruth Tan Tian Yue:
Dear Amy (John),
Today marks the end of our journey in Ngee Ann together, I am so glad I’ve got you as a companion and pillar to lean on throughout my education in Ngee Ann. It has definitely played a part in like my life, you’ve brought me closer to the friends in Nursing. I would have never thought of being close to them cause I’ve always felt like we never were on the same frequency. Yes, I am pretty of a donkey when it comes to that. I know. But I am glad at least I have got some good friends to keep at the end of the day! LIKE YOU! I am not someone who will plunge and make a bestfriend in just a day or a few months, this refers to how I felt right at the beginning when I switched clique. I was doubtful about making friends and all that, one good reason: cause the more good friends you have the more issues, with more issues becomes a huge problem. I guess it wasn’t that bad afterall, I mean look at us! HAHA. I’m totally loving your company. It’s like KICK-ASS man. Crazy people. Especially with Meidan. That woman is sooooo AUNT-LIKE. HAHA, have to agree with you guys ‘aunty meidan’ hahahah. oops! Thank you so so much!!! I bought you sticky because there’s a meaning behind it okay!!!!!
Just a little short whatever you wish to call this for you woman!:
As we embark the journey on this rough road of nursing,
we never knew of you and I we never thought of friendship.
Friendship to the writer was, a ship that brought us-
us as friends together.
Sailing through the rough ocean waves,
breezing through the calm waters.
You played captain, and thy,
“aye aye captain! to the left mates!”
We made it through storms,
we won many battles, sunk pirates ship.
Celebrated with juice and cake,
and pretty cupcakes.
With classic oldies playing along,
we hum to the tune, danced to the beat.
singin’ “…you can dance, you can jive..”
Through this we became sticky,
we knew team spirit of such were rare.
Sticky friend of mine,
may our friendship stick sticky for long.
xoxo. Adora.
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My life with dogs.
Ever since young, when I was born. My life has evolved around dogs. I remember clearly the first dog I met was Prancer, he was a dalmation. My aunt’s dog, but eventually we lived together and he was a part of my life. I remember Prancer as an extremely gentle and loving dog. You could almost do anything with him, lie on him, chew on him, and most importantly play with him. I loved his spots, big and small ones. We didn’t take much pictures then, but I remembered how he looked like. Back then, I was probably only 5 or 6. I guess it’s the affinity I have with dogs. I loved how they would lick me all over my face and pounce on me causing me to fall flat on my bum, and having my parents to scream at me saying “YOU’D BETTER GO WASH YOUR FACE OTHERWISE YOU’LL HAVE PIMPLES TOMORROW!” I didn’t care. No one could stop this stubborn mind of mine.
Then came Jentol, our first siberian husky when we moved into a landed. He was fierce, so fierce. I had that amount of respect for him. You could immediately tell that he had all the leadership qualities a wolfpack would need. He was fun though, the most hilarious part or whatever part you would call was he bit Alvis on the face and he had to be admitted just to get stitches in the inner most of his cheek area and face. That was seriously EPIC. Not only did he bite Alvis, he bit Samantha on her ass, because she tried to stop Jentol and Louie from fighting. Ouch. It was fun having Jentol around, because he never bit me he would lie on my lap when I’m hanging out with them at the patio. I spend most of my time with them. But Jentol, he was a charming baby, he had this aura you just won’t expect from any other dogs. It was hard to see him go, like I remembered the tragic event on a evening when we were all getting ready for dinner. He laid by the side of the walkway and had a heat stroke. We were all panicking and sent him immediately to the vet, if I’m not wrong on a small lorry cause we just moved in to another house. I had the jitters running all over me, everyone was just upset and tearing. When they returned it was only them, no jentol. Then I knew that dogs had to be equally treated with respect and be loved like humans.
In the midst of Jentol, we had a newcomer. Louie, he was a Siberian Husky too. He was special, because his testicles were grown inwards. He was naturally more gentle and walks like a model. OH boy, louie. Best mate ever. (: I loved it when sticks his snout into the water bowl and just drink from it. Don’t ask me how. When we shifted to tavistock, I remembered after every rainfall he would jump into that small pond we had and I would join him and play with him together with Jentol when he was still around. Louie would allow me to teach him tricks even though he knows inside that he doesn’t want to. You could see that unwillingness in his eyes. But I guess he saw me as a kid that he would give in to me. I guess he felt like he owed me a favor cause I would diligently pull off ticks from them after school. So I guess somehow or rather he felt like he was obliged to satisfy my playful needs. His nickname was ‘Blue eye boy’ (: It was then I fell in love with real Blue-eye boys, like I told myself if one day I should be able to date a caucasian man, I would love a blue-eye. But look at me, I’m dating my skin colour. And I’m happy. Louie is just awesome, and I wish you could have met him. He left us cause of his failing organs, age is such a period with dogs. I miss him, I honestly do.
Last to join the pack was soun soun! He’s still around though, he is HUGE. I remember so clearly like after the third day when we just got him from the pet store, i took him out for a walk on my skate scooter. Clever right? And fell so bad in the middle of the road, yes I was badly bruised. But I could only remember telling myself like I would hate myself if anything had happen to soun soun. Cause he had literally sprint to where Samantha had took Louie and Jentol to. He was so strong for his age! I couldn’t believe myself how strong he was. OH! another EPIC event, so eventful. We had left our gate open by accident, and the 3 of them, yes Jentol, Louie and Soun Soun, ran out all the way to NTUC at gardens, and Louie had apparently from the aunts taken a stroll in NTUC, while Soun Soun and Jentol was waiting outside. CRAZY. But it was just such a great laughter. Of course there were bad times with them, when they had killed my chinchillas, my dad had bought me 4 of them before and like I think they killed most of them. One, because they ran out from my hands and like killed it there and then. My fault. Two, I guess it’s the heat in SIngapore. But man, we had spent about 4 freaking thousand on the Chins. ): BUT! it seems like my dad is interested in buying them now. So I am absolutely looking forward to it. So my darling soun soun is still around, but he’s really old already. Still very charming and lovely.
Right now, in my small pigeon HDB flat. I have 2 very special dogs. Chocolate and Crystal. They are amazing!!!!!! Chocolate behaves like a freaking princess, she will not and never sleep on the floor. IF she has to sleep outside it’s either the sofa or the rocking chair. But never on the floor. Crystal is totally the opposite, she’ll sleep ANYWHERE. And i don’t get why she loves to get herself stuck in the toilet. Choc, she’s my best friend. Times when I was really depressingly upset, she was there for me, licking off my tears and sleeping next to me. She was just so understanding for a dog. You cannot not love her. She is extremely as in like super PROTECTIVE of me, like you can’t even hit me. If you do, she’ll rip your skin off. Just kidding it’s not that bad, she just cannot stand the sight of violence and noise. Crystal too, is just as amazing, I remembered the last time I fainted at home, I remember waking up because Crystal was there licking my face. All over. BIG TIME. Scratching my FACE. And obviously I woke up because my dad found me there. Crystal is just a baby, you cannot get angry with her, cause if you do and you hit her, she will CRY CRY CRY in your face. She won’t move, she won’t look at you, she’ll just sleep it off. Try scolding Crystal and you’ll see what you get. HAHA. Sleepy eyes. Cute. They are my best friends. Although I wish they will give me more space when we turn in at night. Chocolate will either be at the base of my foot or at the top of my head whereas crystal will be tugged in together with me. But it’s cosy. And I like cosy. I miss them already. Sigh. (:
How can I live without dogs. :D
